So… there’s about four weeks left into the semester. And let me tell you, I feel like Sh!*! But I can’t decide if I want this semester to be over or if I wish it was longer because I don’t know what to anticipate at the end of it. I’m not sure what’s going to happen. I can never predict the outcome of the semester. I’ve been on edge since this whole SDSU thing started. Heh…
Honestly, tho, as bad as I’ve made it seem, I’m really thankful that I’ve been able to attend at this school. I’ve met and encountered many interesting folks, some not so interesting… I’ve learned so much, and not just what you’re supposed to learn in school, but also about life in general and how things work or don’t work. I’ve been challenged in ways I’ve never really been challenged before. I’ve struggled and have been pushed all the way down to the bottom, I’ve felt like the sorriest, most pathetic person walking on campus because I didn’t do well on an exam (haha!), but overall, I feel that I’ve become stronger as a student, as well as an individual, mentally, emotionally, and I guess physically too since I carry all my books and laptop everyday across campus! lol.
I really have enjoyed my time here so far! It really has been a journey. And as bad as any semesters may have been, I’ve always felt the same towards the end - I wish it didn’t end just yet.
One thing I wish I’d done at the beginning of every semester since I started here, though, was to be more friendly to my classmates. lol. It’s not that I’m not nice, but I just always kept to myself. Then towards the end I realize how much I’ve missed out on because I didn’t start talking to or interacting with my fellow classmates. Oh well, I’ll be sure to remember that next semester.
But like I said, I don’t know what’s going to happen. I can only keep working hard and pushing myself to get the best results, and hope that it’s enough to get me to the next step. Because honestly, I don’t want to have to start over somewhere else.